Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Resistance is Futile

Change is hard, but it is crucial for growth. It might be one of the most difficult things to do, but in order for God to use us fully, we need to make real changes in our life.

Most of my life was about being a patient and supportive girlfriend, daughter, sister to the people I loved who had serious issues: commitment issues, drug issues, control issues. I was the nice girl who fixed and nurtured their broken wings. My willingness to give unconditional love only made them feel obligated to be grateful to my martyred ass, and that caused them to want to hurt me. Have you ever loved so deeply that you would condemn yourself for eternality? No earthly person is worth that kind of pain. In order to take myself out of that coil of suffering, I learned that I needed real change in my heart and in my way of thinking.

First, I had to learn to let go of my past. My past is my mother and the millionth times I failed to please her. It doesn’t matter anymore. What’s important is focusing on the future.
Isaiah 43:18-19
18 "Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.

Second, I had to discover my destination. If we don’t know where we are going, we won’t know when we get there. The critical destination is to know who we want to become for God, what lives in our heart, our character, our attitude, our essence.

Third, this is crucial. Take control of our priorities and eliminate destructive distractions. Distractions are those times playing video games, surfing the net to kill time or going to Christian social functions hoping to hook-up with someone. There is power in prioritizing. Spend more time on what really matters and not on what seems urgent at the moment or what feels good for right now.

Fourth, overcome our fears and insecurities. This is a big one. We all have some kind of fear or insecurity, but did you know that fear is a sin? Anything that doesn’t allow us to put faith in the Lord is a sin. Also, these two are the biggest reasons more people never achieve greatness. Face your fears! With God’s help, nothing is impossible.

Fifth, our circle of friends can make or break our dreams. We should surround ourselves with people who will cheer us on, people who love and support us.

Lastly, we need to appreciate the mystery of life. We will never find the answers to all of our questions. Life is not about finding the right answers; it’s about asking the right questions. Ask God the questions and rest in His presence to carry you through.

Change is hard, but we have to if we want to be a success.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Tame me

"But if you tame me, then we shall need each other.
To me, you will be unique in all the world.
To you, I shall be unique in all the world."

-the Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery

The fox begged the Little Prince to tame her. "To tame is an act too often neglected," said the fox. "It means to establish ties."

In this world of fast pace, quick encounters, speed dating, we forget to slow down and establish a tie with another person. We had a best friend when we were younger; now, we have too many acquaintances that we call “friends”. Amongst this jungle of constant networking, I want to be tamed; but my spirit is too stubborn to allow anyone close enough to touch my mane.

"Please tame me." The fox said as she tilts her head and smiles.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Things to Consider

Life is short, enjoy each moment. If you catch yourself yawning, if you catch yourself ready to jump out the window, or if you want to scream out of boredom. Realize that it’s you who can control your situation.

I used to tell people that I don’t like to waste their time or my time. God showed me that nothing is a waste of time. The movie you are watching, the person you are conversing with, even the smile to a stranger. They all add to the person that you are. You affect the other person and your lives are a story that is interwoven together. In the end, all our stories are just one story.

Destiny might bring you to the path of a new friend. It is up to you to make the most of each moment, each friendship, each thought. My thought for tonight –sometimes love is not all fireworks, it can come quietly and unexpectedly.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Be still

After six months of no fun, no rest, no break, I finally was able to get away from work, from my single bedroom apartment, from the constant questions and demands. The fa├žade of some people’s lives seem easy, perfect. But the truth is, just because something appears a certain way doesn’t mean it can be viewed the same.

This past weekend, with my responsibilities placed aside, the personality I keep dormant pushed its way out. It made people laugh, it pissed people off and it danced all night around other Christian souls. This past weekend, my spirit wept. It wept because it loves the rebellious part of me that takes me on a high and would eventually lead me back to meekness. It wept because the process by which it had to escape the fear of criticism was painful. It wept because from now on, it will fear no more. It wept because it is finally free from the control of others. This past weekend, I learned that my friends and I have been living in two different planets. I occasionally visit theirs, but they never seem to visit mine. And I leave feeling like an outsider.

Yet, this past weekend, among strangers of the same faith, I felt alive and free to be me. This weekend made me all too ready to embrace the workload, the busyness, the pretense. This past weekend, surfing on the snow, it allowed my body to cut through the air so swiftly it grew ponderous, so ponderous that it forced my spirit out of my flesh…. and I loved every moment of it.